On arriving at Tabanovce where 600 people are now living, I was taken to a class of children who were all excited by the idea that I had come to give a ballet lesson. They had already done a warm up class and now gathered in the container which accommodates the child friendly space for the many children that make up half of the camp's population. Sitting with them, discussing their drawings and hearing about their lives, I started to understand the reality of being a child in a camp. Days filled with nothing to do except for the most welcome entertainment and care
provided by local NGO workers or other people desperate to use their professional skills in the service of the children, like a former teacher who gives them Arabic lessons a few times a week.
But it was the reality of being a new mother in a refugee camp that truly hit me. As the mother of a 2 year old myself, I found it unbearably moving when I sat chatting to a young mother, 18 year old Maryam, whose husband and father had flown from Syria a few months before and were waiting for Maryam and her mother to join them in Germany. I held her 13 day old beautiful baby as Maryam recounted how, heavily pregnant, she had fled Damascus, walked over mountains in the freezing cold, and by night crossed the Mediterranean on a crowded and unsafe boat into which smugglers forced her to
board at gun point. I can't even pretend to imagine how terrified she must have been both for her life and that of her unborn baby as she sat in that rocky boat in the middle of the sea. And I can't imagine the relief she must have felt knowing they had all made it safely to shore of Lesbos.
Days later and full of hope (a country closer towards being reunited with her husband) she took the barbed wired track leading into Serbia, just a hundred yards from Tabanovce camp. But that day, the Serbian border closed. Not only was Maryam not allowed to cross into Serbia even though her papers were in order, but she also wasn't allowed back into Macedonia by the police at the other end of the track. Maryam, was stuck for 4 days, about to give birth, in the no-man's land between the both countries.
She asked me if I knew when the border would be opening again so she could make her way to Germany for her husband to finally meet with Sham - his new daughter, named after the city of Damascus - and for them to live like a normal family. I have never felt so utterly helpless in all my life. What could I say - that I just didn't know anything?
I couldn't bear to leave these people who so totally opened their hearts to me, but as I was walking away, a little girl who had been clinging onto my arm throughout the visit took off a bright pink plastic ring, in the shape of a star. She took my hand and placed it on my finger. I still don't have the courage to take it off. It might look like a simple trinket but it now symbolises so much more. It carries the hope I saw in the girl's eyes, and everyone else I met, despite the horrors they have gone through. I owe it to her and them to keep it on and not
to forget how that visit opened my eyes to the harsh reality of life that is experienced by so many people every single day.
I am just a ballerina, it's true. But through my dance, I will do everything I can to bring attention to this issue.
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